Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Accepting Myself

I've resigned and accepted myself, for who I am. The ability to appreciate the depth of issues of life no matter how much restlessness and depression it might cost me to have. My only hope is to run to God and to rest in His sovereignity.

No matter what may befall me, what is important at the end of the day, is that my faith in Him will not waver. LORD, strengthen my faith!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Gibb's Rules

Rule #1: Never let suspects stay together.

Rule #1: Never screw over your partner.

Rule #2: Always wear gloves at a crime scene.

Rule #3: Don't believe what you're told. Double check.

Rule #3: Never be unreachable. (*Most likely one of Mike Franks' "Golden Rules" (see below) as opposed to Gibbs, because Gibbs has been known to intentionally be unreachable.*)

Rule #4: The best way to keep a secret? Keep it to yourself. Second best? Tell one other person - if you must. There is no third best.

Rule #5: You don't waste good.

Rule #6: Never apologize. It's a sign of weakness.

Rule #7: Always be specific when you lie.

Rule #8: Never take anything for granted.

Rule #9: Never go anywhere without a knife.

Sometimes listed as "Never leave home without a knife."

Rule #10: Never get personally involved in a case.

Said by the SecNav to be Rule #1 in Washington politics, in Nature of the Beast, Season 9, Episode 1.

Rule #11: When the job is done, walk away.

Rule #12: Never date a co-worker.

Rule #13: Never, ever involve a lawyer.

Rule #15: Always work as a team.

Rule #16: If someone thinks they have the upper hand, break it.

Rule #18: It's better to seek forgiveness than ask permission.

Rule #22: Never, ever bother Gibbs in interrogation.

Rule #23: Never mess with a Marine's coffee... if you want to live.

Rule #27: There are two ways to follow someone. (1) First way, they never notice you. (2) Second way, they onlynotice you.

Rule #35: Always watch the watchers.

Rule #36: If you feel like you are being played, you probably are.

Rule #38: Your case, your lead.

Rule #39: There is no such thing as coincidence.

Rule #40: If it seems someone is out to get you, they are.

Rule #44: First things first, hide the women and children.

Rule #45: Clean up the mess that you make.

Also stated as, "Never leave behind loose ends."

Rule #51: Sometimes - you're wrong.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Surrender?

LORD, must I surrender everything that I hold dear?
My passions, my identity, myself?
What will I have LORD?

I'm so lost
I don't know what will happen to me
But I know Your thoughts are greater than mine

Help me to give it all up
And let Your fire consume it
Until there's nothing left of me

Take it all....

Monday, September 5, 2011

I Wonder

I feel so lost
Wondering what is happening to me
Words cannot put it
On how I feel

God
When will You deliver me
Deliver me from this
And let me be free


Sunday, March 13, 2011

The Long and Winding Road

One of the best songs ever written. This version is awesome. Enjoy....

Random Post....

It's a day since I've turned 22. I'm getting older day by day. Yesterday was just a milestone after I grew older after 365 days. Am of utmost graditute for my parents for raising me up in being who I am today. God-fearing, non-rebellious(not major), trained to do housework since young(awfully proud of it) and just being myself.

Despite the initial joy of turning 22, getting all the wonderful wishes from my friends, gifts and an ambush in the afternoon, the euphoria soon settled down and here I am, facing the harsh questions of life again.

I don't enjoy being so complicated-minded. Even my best noticed that I tend to complicate simple matters. God knows how she managed to put up with my weirdness(depends on how you put it).

Whilst driving to work, I almost got overwhelmed by my anxiety enemy. Wished I had Dopamine to just shut my mind down a bit to calm myself down. Despite being surrounded by loving family and friends, with wonderful pastors on call 24/7 and being loved by the most wonderful girl ever, deep down there is this emptiness within me.

I feel so lonely deep down. It's like the eerie type of loneliness, a deep longing. I thought the girl I loved could fill it, knowledge, hobbies but no, I was wrong. I chased after so many things to satisfy me. I pursued knowledge, things to stimulate my mind to find it but no, it's not there.

Since young, I've been restless within. Not easy being like this as a kid but that's what I go through. Then I could not explain it but now I can. Only God can....

So I started seeking. Reading the Bible, pray, be silent. The former two are easy, but when it comes to the latter, in my opinion bench-pressing is way easier.

They said God speaks to a silent soul. Great. How does a restless soul be restful after being restless within for more than half his life?

"Nos fecisti ad te et inquietum est cor nostrum donec requiescat in te."

Oh well, continue seeking is the answer. In the meantime, I can't complain because God has been good to me in many areas. I'm so blessed to be surrounded by awesome people. I shall continue seeking Him and do my best with what I have now while hoping and waiting upon Him.

L'Chaim

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

The Fellowship of the Unashamed

“I am part of the “Fellowship of the Unashamed.” I have Holy Spirit power. The die has been cast. I’ve stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of His. I won’t look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions, mundane talking, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals!

I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don’t have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded. I now live by presence, lean by faith, love by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.

My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my guide reliable, my mission clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, diluted, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.

I won’t give up, shut up, let up, or burn up till I’ve reached up, prayed up, paid up, stored up, and stayed up for the cause of Christ.

I am a disciple of Jesus. I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops.

And when He comes to get His own, He’ll have no problems recognizing me. My colors will be clear.